Some days, I would say I’m happy.
That I’m content living in California.
That I consider myself blessed.
That I thank God for the opportunity to live there,
And for the amazing things I have gotten to do.
But some days, my heart aches.
Aches for my family.
Aches for my Mom’s comfort when I don’t feel good.
Aches to snuggle up in my Daddy’s lap like I did when I was 5.
Aches for my baby to grow up with his cousins.
This year, I really want to be content.
I want to truly believe that I am where I am for a reason.
I want to enjoy every day, knowing I won’t be there forever.
To purpose in my heart to make the best of where I am.
To trust that God cares not only about my needs, but also my wants.
Even with all this good intention, I’m struggling.
I wonder if I’ll ever live near my family.
I’m scared I can’t handle more kids being so far away.
My glimmer of hope is already fading.
And I’m only 4 days into the year.
Rachel McPhillips says
🙁 I'm sad that you have to be far away. That has got to be super hard.
I'm in the same boat (granted, my family is about 3 hours away, and not more) and some days I love it and some days…. not so much. We're hoping for a little one this year, and it's going to be hard knowing that we're down here alone, and everyone will have to come visit and she/he won't be able to see his aunt/uncles and grandmas as much as I'd like. But we have good jobs, and I suppose thats what is important right now… because without them, we wouldn't even be able to think about a baby.
Basically, being a grown-up sucks. Hard. Hope your week gets better!!
it's tough to be away from family, especially during the times you need them the most. hang in there!
It's hard, I know. But, with frequent purposeful trips, you can still have that. Taylor has a great relationship with his aunts and cousins and they live far away. We visit twice a year and skype all the time.
Hang in there mama.
I'm working on contentment too….we'll hold each other accountable.
Love ya lady.
Awww, sweetie…I'm sorry you're feeling down about being away from your family. God certainly does know what He's doing and He's got you in His arms….I'm sure you will be near to your family soon enough.
I'm sending happy and uplifting thoughts your way! 🙂
Awwwww. What part of CA are you in? I can imagine what you must be going through.
It's bittersweet, do you Skype with your fam? That's always fun.
Your son is the cutest btw, I'll be following!
Taylor @ Jimmy Choos and a Baby Too says
I cannot imagine how hard it must be to be away from family and friends! My hubs got a job offer in Switzerland and I just about lost my mind with the thought of being more than an hour away from my family! I hope 2010 starts looking up for you really soon! xoxo
Miss M says
I know the feeling… sort of. My family is all here where I live, but all of my friends are in San Diego… so even though my parents etc live here, my support system does not… My heart is not in Phoenix at all. it is hard. Hang in there!!
awww…this makes me sad. I dont know how you do it girl….you are BRAVE. I must see my mama like every day…and talk to her like 3 times outside of that…
boo for your long distance 🙁
Hang in there Molly. I think a lot of us can sympathize with your feelings, even if its not about specifically where we live or don't live. In the meantime, me and Tyler are here to hang out when you want and we can even eat Southern dishes and try to talk with Georgia accents – LOL. 🙂
I can only imagine how difficult that would be! My mom just told me that her and my dad are wanting to head down south for the winter — annually!! And that is making me stressed!!! So I can't imagine having that all the time!! I hope things get better for ya!
It is hard to be away from family! I lived away from mine for about ten years until I convinced them to move nearer to me. I hope this year brings you peace. Maybe you can visit them more often or they can visit you more?
I know the feeling. It is hard to be far from family and not have that extra support. The girls and I have been feeling that a lot lately. Just remember you have us all here with you…even tho we aren't really with you.
Naturally Caffeinated Family says
aww I'm sorry. We definitely know how it is to away from loved ones. Our fams live on opposite coasts so we can never live by both (neither of them are ever going to budge=)), so we have been struggling with where we want to eventually plant our roots too. But we have a travel part of our budget so we can try to visit no matter where we live=) It's still hard though, we know!
oh honey, keep your head up. i can't imagine how hard it would be not to be close to family. don't let it hold you back from being you and growing your family. you are a strong willed lady, don't lose hope sweets.
thinking about you, xo
Awww, I can't imagine trying to raise my little one away from my family. I always feel bad for my hubby because his mom and dad moved away to TN a couple of years ago. It's hard on him, especially now that our little boy is on the way. I hope you make it back home some day.
Oh Molly, i'm so sorry. I can't imagine being away from my family. I'm not sure what to say except you are allowed to feel this way..anybody would. HUGS!
btw didn't post on your FF post, but LOVE those tights girl! I must find them.
Its so hard living away from family. I was in your shoes as well. But you make it work, you make it home and you treasure your family so much more. We found our way back, even if it will be for a little while.
Good luck to you! Hang in there!